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Long time No read...

Neurotin is my best dear friend. I have been on this medication for just a little while and it has been wonderful! The pain is still very much there and reminds me every so often. I just recently started a new job so things have been a little crazy which is why there haven't been any posts in a while. We will be celebrating our 9th Anneversary on Sunday so it might be a few days until I post again. The next post though will include all symptoms that I experience on a day to day basis before and after the Neurotin. Thanks for reading and keeping up with my inconsistency. As I say to family and friends - My name is Mark, I have focus issues. Lol. Still waiting for a drug that will get me out of this cloud I feel as though I am under. Perhaps that will come in time. Thank you all for your prayers and thoughts.

Neurontin-Day 2

Ok, starting day 2. This is really a wonderfully horrible drug. For me anyways. When I take it, about 45 minutes to an hour I feel sick to my stomach. That I can deal with, but the other feelings are pretty bad. My muscles cant seem to fire as quick as they should. Right now, as my fingers type, I started at a pretty standard speed. Now I find myself typing very slow and my mind feels disconnected, almost like I am teetering off a cliff but there is nothing I can do about it so... I just sit or lay down until its over. After a while, I will almost "snap" out of it and I am fine for the most part. It helps with the pain though so hopefully the side effects will lessen the more I am on them. More later. Sent from my Windows® phone.

And On The Third Pill, He Rested

And On The Third Pill, He Rested I have now taken my first official 1st day supply of Neurontin. 900mg. Now I can sleep. My body in just 3 pills, has givin me many mixed emotions. First I feel as though I am about to pass out. I am safe, already in my bed. If I fall I am mot be going too far. trying to get thru the ddizzzy feeeelin g.. Hopfullywont have. To feel ttthis forr too muc,h loongre. Nighttt alllll. Sent from my Windows® phone.

Pill #2 Down The Hatch!

Pill #2 Down The Hatch! Ok, 16 minutes ago #2 was history. I have noticed a pretty significant change in body movement since the first dose. It is almost a night and day type of effect. I still feel the pain but it feels as though the pain receptors are moved a little farther away, almost like if you would turn on a box fan, and sit farther away from it then you would normally. You still feel the air but just not as much as if you were right in front of it. Very odd to have this sensation after 10 years. The Neurontin hasn't healed me, nor diagnosed me, but hopefully will lessen the grip of whatever it is that has a hold of me. Looks like I might have a little better sleep tonight. See you on pill 3. -Sent from my iPod Touch 3G-

My first Neurotin (Gabapentin 300mg)

I would have included this in the very last post but my mother in law JUST dropped off a few extra Neurotin she had. Yes, I know, dont take others medications, I dont reccomend it but, this was perscribed to me by my doctor. Same mg and all, I am not able to get out at the present so, I was lucky enough to be able to have the medications dropped off to me. Thank God. So... here I lay. On my bed, and have just taken my first pill about almost 10 minutes ago. *timing it on my ipod* I tend to put a lot of emphesis on certain things that I probably shouldnt. Of course I am not feeling this pill yet, if I will at all, but I have this glow inside my body. Its really odd and hard to express how it feels but I think its Hope. Sometimes it is further back so the light is a lot more dim then maybe it should be, and I tend to look right past it... But it IS there. With this new medication, I am trying to be open to anything that comes but at the same time I have been let down so many times that I

First AM Post

Oh god this am is bad. Seems like the hips and feet are the topic to this mornings rant. Needed to go to the restroom, not one but both feet popped. When I say popped, you would assume that the ankles or even toes produced them. No, for me, the pain and sound came from underneath my feet. A strip that lay directly in the middle of each foot. I heard a SNAP, and about a second and a half from taking another step, my right foot snaps in the same place. It sometimes is accompanied with pain after the initial pop, and other times the sound of the pop stops me in my tracks, and I stand there waiting for it to hit me, and the sound would be the only part that would be initially painful. My hips are the true source of my discourd this morning, though. Both sides. Sometimes I get a sharp, "have to look down to make sure that there are no visible stab wounds" type of pain. Pain. You know, this word gets thrown around a lot. I just started this blog and the word "pain" is use

Introduction

Hello fellow readers. My name is Mark Ryan, and I suffer from a rather rare affliction. I use the word "rare" because those are the words that several doctors seem to like when returning to my case or referring me to others when the scratching of their heads argues with their ego. I am typing these words i hopes that it might fill quite a large hole of uncertainty that I have, about my ability as a father, a husband, a provider, and a law abiding citizen. I want to do the right thing, and that I have to be a leader for my children. I vow that they will grow up and be respectful to all walks of life... not because that is what their dad tried to do but, because that is the RIGHT thing to do. I have never been a huge "Blogger" or "Blogist" or... whatever is socially the norm these days. I have been told though that when I write, I have a type of style that at least gets the point across to the other party of what I am trying to convey so... I guess that is a

The Truth

A blog. Now what? I don't know. I have been told by several people that blogging can actually be therapeutic. Right now I see this as almost a whine session in text form. I mean... who wants to read the ramblings of a middle aged man in Oklahoma with chronic pain. *I hear it already... bla bla, whine, bla.* I will continue though, reluctant as I am that this will somehow make what I deal with on a day to day basis, better then it is currently. I do warn the reader that I am no writer. No gift of eloquence here. I type as the words come to me, and sugar coating things would only mean that I am lying to myself. I will update, or blog when my body reminds me, or when the odd things happen. I have a mobile device so a lot of the things I post with be happening in the spirit of the moment. A preverbial typo will of course find itself in my blogs, I will not edit to remove the typos or mistakes. This will be a all natural blog the way my body delivers it. The tremors that somehow cast t