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Living With It, Dealing With It

      Still waiting for my referral from the doctors about my surgery. It is going to be a long time to wait and even a longer recovery time once it happens. Scared? Yeah. First time under the knife, first time being REALLY partially immobile. Used to do stuff for myself. People bend over backwards to open doors for me when they see me coming and although I really appreciate it, it makes me feel disconnected from myself. Its weird. The gratitude I have is very real but there is always something in the back of my mind that says, "I should be helping them." I want so much to be helpful and make an impact in people. I feel broken in that respect. I want my kids to grow up and know how to treat people and feel empowered to keep doing it without any reward back other then that feeling and they did something they didn't have to do, or just go that extra distance.      Love one another. That isn't hard to do you would think. People still have issues with negative stigmas tho