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Talons

I am so tired of feeling so broken all the time. Tired of feeling like I have to try twice as hard as everyone else. Granted I know that there are a LOT worse off people then myself out in the world and my heart goes out to them. I honestly can't even think of my life with my broken body being any harder... But I know it could be worse. That has me worried. If this is a progression (which it is) it means it IS going to get worse. Much worse. If I can't stand it now, that doesn't give me any comfort for the future. I just have to reach down further and find something rooted that the claws can slowly rip... And then reach even further then that each and every day.

Hand Images

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With making a fist for 10 seconds, and letting go... Hands will not go back to normal on their own.

The Legend Of Sleepy Post

          Ok. On top of all the pain and ailments that I have already, sleeplessness has to be a bitch too.           I know that lack of sleep can be quite a nuisance so this post will be short due to hands cramping up and the light from my phone might be bothering my wife.           I will be making a page for all of my issues complete with images. Be looking for that later. Good night, I hope.

The Loner

(Saved At 12:44 pm) Here I sit, at work, looking at everyone interact with one another. When I was in training class for this job, I was told that I was or acted like a loner. I told my wife and she agreed with them. I never really thought of myself as a loner but I guess that is what I am. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE people. You can't feel inspired totally unless you include the human condition and all that it has to offer. Why am I a loner? I don't know. Perhaps it is because i feel inadequate. Who wants to be surrounded by people that are smarter, better looking, and on a better train of life then you are. Yes, I know what you are saying or thinking. There is no one that knows for sure if they are better off. There is no one to say that you are diminutive to them but yourself. Your seeing my negative self outlook, assuming that I had issues at home when I was a child. Yes, correct, but this isn't about then, it's about now. I have created my own sys