It's All In The Hips...

          Woke up this AM with a pain I sadly have felt before. Do you ever remember taking string and wrapping it around your finger to see it change color and temperature? It feels like someone wrapped string around my waist and the full lower half of my body is absolutely throbbing. No color changes thank gosh but the constant waves of uncontrollable pain is just so much that I can't get out of bed. I feel very sad for my wife to have to hear me crying, knowing she wasn't able to fix anything. I think its frustrating for both sides. Me for feeling the pain 24-7 and for her having to not only listen to me wimper and groan, but to feel that helplessness for not being able to help me.

          I just took two Lortab 10s to try to take the edge off. I hate taking pills, I just HATE them, any kind of medication really. I have been prescribed so many things throughout the years, I am staggered I don't have a dependancy for them. I do my version of prayer thanking the powers that be for the fact things aren't as worse as they could be... but sometimes I forget to do that... Yet its something that I hold on to quiet frequently. We all need something that sustains us, right? At least gives up the "feeling" that we can live another day untouched by what life COULD be dealing us. It works for me sometimes, and other times it feels like I am grasping at all short straws.

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